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i’m not sure if it’s getting any easier or harder. feel myself becoming more estranged but it might be for the best - this learning how to steel myself from people’s apathy. perhaps the acquaintances i make have the habit of shaking things off easily. it’s no big deal to them after all. likewise, i try to tell myself to learn from them since society values the illusion of composure. all my present material comforts, and the ease of moving on from one social circle to another is still available to me. i shouldn’t place such emphasis on fragile little things like human relationships. 9 times out of 10 they usually fail me anyway.